A Sample Story Written According to M6 Guidelines
The following is a good example of a story submitted which contains all the elements mentioned in the guidelines:
My present incarnation started in early 1940, an Aquarius, at the beginning of WW-II. A few early memories of family life, woods in Pennsylvania, blackouts (where we had to huddle in the basement) and the neighborhood celebrating the end of the war with a big picnic and fireworks.
At age 5, after the war, we moved to San Diego where my father took an important job and we settled into a new lifestyle and home. Soon, however, by the time I am in 2nd - 3rd grade (around age 7) my parents divorce. My brother and sister were too young to realize what was happening, but I remember feeling I could not depend on others, I had to survive on my own.
During this period I was placed in an orphanage for a few months (parents couldn’t deal with the chaos of three children at that time). My father visited a few times, my mother never (he said she had a ‘nervous breakdown’). I learned to survive a bit more on my own and be careful of who one trusted.
I was always inquisitive and adventuresome. At age 8-10 I used to delight in all kinds of mischief, like breaking into schools or churches during summer break, walking the halls, getting on the roof, smoking cigarettes in my ‘fort’, etc. One day my friends and I decided to vandalize a church – for no apparent reason (perhaps an unconscious bleed-through of other incarnational experience?). I recall asking myself at this early age, “How can a rock exist longer than me? What is death? What is this all about? Of course, no answers – and my friends thought me a bit odd for asking.
My maternal grandmother lived with us at this time for about 18 months, but moved out because she couldn’t stand the negativity of my mother (who was rapidly becoming an alcoholic). She was the only positive female I experienced at this time.
I and my brother and sister lived with my mom in an apartment. She was bitter over the divorce and responsibility of children, and let us know it often. I tried to avoid her as much as possible. I got us evicted from the apartment complex by putting glue into many apartment keyholes, and other assorted mischief. We moved when I was in 5th grade (about age 10) and again 2-3 years later. At 14 years I’m in 9th grade and a new high school, new friends. I join a church youth group, mainly for social reasons. But, I start asking questions about the religion (presbyterian) and inconsistencies with science – but the youth director couldn’t provide answers. I made him nervous. I became intensely interested in questions of god, religion, the universe, etc, but few others in the group were.
I breezed through high school in a fairly ‘normal’ way. I was good at art, science and math; I was on the track team; and worked part time all through high school and college to afford a car and a daily expenses. I went to San Diego State and joined a fraternity. I was initially a physics major, but quickly changed to architecture because I couldn’t stand the narrow minded nerds that populated the sciences. I met a girl in college that I dated for almost two years – until she became pregnant. Everything changed.
We got married to avoid intense embarrassment to her family (staunch catholics) – and moved to Berkeley. I got a job in an architectural firm, attended classes at Berkeley and we had our son in 1961. Life was a struggle but also new and exciting. My father lived in San Francisco with his wife of 5 years, and I was able to renew a relationship with him. We visited them often and he was pleased to be a grandfather.
One day I received a call from the SF police to the effect that my father and his wife had been on an alcoholic binge for three days, please come at once. After I arrived my father was taken into custody and I tended his wife for a few days until her son arrived from Arizona. My father was put in the county hospital for about a week, where he received medical and psychiatric treatment. I visited a few times and was asked to sign his release, which I did. He seemed very upbeat and anxious to get home. The next day I received another call from the SF police – my father and his wife both committed suicide the previous evening. What a shock - I was still 21.
So by the third 7-cycle of this life I had experienced huge changes in my rather unstable family life. I was in early adulthood, with responsibilities and largely unconscious of any ‘path’ I was on. I remember, however, feeling ‘trapped’.
I met a friend a year or two after the trauma with my father. He was Chinese and had been very well educated in China and England (before the communist revolution). He gave me a few books on UFO’s and the like, which I found intensely fascinating. We talked for hours on end about UFO’s, ESP, ancient civilizations, the paranormal, etc. He had a lot of knowledge about these things. I visited every library in the Bay Area to find books on these subjects (few available then).
After reading Adamski’s three books on UFO’s and his contact experiences, I drove down to Vista to visit him in person to see if he was credible. George Adamski and Desmond Leslie were the first to write a book on the subject that was widely available – I recalled noticing the first book in a library when I was about 14 (1954) I think. Anyway, he was a self-educated philosopher (typical contactee profile) and seemed responsive to my questions. I eventually took a 12-part correspondence course from him called the ‘Science of Life’ – which was actually very helpful to me at the time, because it explored consciousness on an individual and cosmic frame of reference. It also painted ET’s as benevolent ‘brothers’ – typical.
In my work I had moved to an architectural products company where I excelled and had many promotions. In 1965 we moved to southern California where I was recruited by another company in the same business. By age 28 I was a division manager with 200 people under me and a large budget. I was also questioning where it was all going. I asked my wife questions about the meaning, purpose and direction in her life and mine. She felt very threatened by these (a typical mid-level response).
About this time my Chinese friend called to tell me about a discussion group I might like that was available in SoCal, called “Challenge to Change”. It sounded interesting so I dragged my wife to the first meeting and by the 7th meeting she became interested as well. We went to a weekend seminar in a retreat center in the Santa Cruz mountains. I was hooked. Here were people from all walks of life, most highly educated, examining core principles and how they applied in one’s daily life. A week long seminar followed, then more discussion groups and seminars.
It was the one activity that I found fulfilling and could participate with my wife. We became very involved in facilitating groups of all kinds. It turned out that the group was started by a Stanford law professor and his wife many years before from the works of Henry Burton Sharman. Sharman, a retired Canadian businessman, initiated a very rigorous, intellectual, group process that examined the teachings of jesus, but not as a savior or god. The approach was to examine only the teachings and how they applied to one’s contemporary life. The first discussion group we attended was, in fact, a version of those teachings – but masked very well in contemporary language and approach. It worked.
The next three 7-year cycles in my life (age 28 to 49) would be largely centered around this educational foundation. In my work I was on 5 year cycles it seemed – first the large manufacturing company, then another where I was a manger, then another smaller company where I started a new division and built it into a large operation. I went from large to smaller to very small organizations, when I purchased a small business in 1975 (age 35, 5th cycle). It was a turn-around and sale opportunity which I completed three years later. I then started an energy management business that was eventually sold to another big company 5 years later, then consulting work, then a mediation-arbitration business, then working entirely on my own in consulting and designing and building spec homes, etc. The significance of all this would not dawn on me until much later after my encounter with the M5 materials.
The volunteer work with the educational foundation was the focus of my interest and attention, except for my ‘day job’ activities and raising two sons. It was also a mutual activity with my wife, which I’m sure preserved the relationship much longer than would otherwise have occurred. Yet during this period I ‘knew’ I was exactly were I was supposed to be.
I became totally immersed in the work of the ‘community’ as we called it (come-unity). It was an organization of top caliber people working for the ‘well being of all nations, races and religions’. It promoted the concepts of ‘one earth, one humanity, one spirit’ and more. Totally sequential and lightsider oriented. The outer activities over this period were amazing and fun to be associated with: A musical play staged for 3 days each fall in San Francisco over a 4-5 year period – celebrating the nations of the world coming together in common purpose; the first live satellite links with the Soviet Union on a joint educational project; delegations to and from the Soviet Union, and to Washington, DC; the ‘Five Continent Peace Initiative’ through the U.N.; forming another non-profit organization to push a nuclear safeguards initiative in California, then educational outreaches with elected officials across the country; and much, much more. All this coupled with a small group process that was very effective in recruiting, educating and training people to work together cooperatively toward common goals through behavioral agreements that worked.
The ‘inner work’ of all this effort was more important. We focused on deep psychological cleansing, understanding the conditioning process that we all undergo, tying it to universal principles, spiritual training (through study, meditation, dreams, art, music, retreats, etc). It was the ‘glue’ that held the group effort together. It also build deep personal relationships with others working toward the same goals. Again, the significance of all this would not hit me until much later with the M5 materials.
During this 21 year period of my life I gained much experience and maturity to the point where I began questioning the process I was involved in. Typical human dynamics still prevailed in the group: leader-follower dynamics, hierarchy dynamics, ego based ‘promotions’ of those who ‘conformed’ to group norms, ‘us vs. them’ dynamics; resistance to questions I posed or other frames of reference; a total blindness to the subjects of esoteric teachings, aliens, life beyond this planet, past civilizations, ESP, shamanism, etc. Eventually I became disillusioned with the ‘inner workings’ of this entire effort. People were stuck in particular patterns and did not want to explore anything outside a narrow range of ideas. My previous exploration of ‘outside the box’ subjects allowed me to see clearly that while the ‘group process’ had many positive advantages, it did not actually accomplish within itself what it professed for the world outside.
By 1999 (age 49) my children were now grown and gone from the house; we were ‘empty nesters’. We visited friends in a ski town in Utah that we were familiar with. A few days later we purchased a house there, sold our SoCal home within a month, and moved to the small town of 7,000 at 7,000 feet elevation (never having thought about such a move prior). A new cycle of life began; it felt ‘right’.
I was determined to respond to what life presented in this new environment, with no pre-set ideas. I began meeting locals, volunteering for a few organizations, learning the social, cultural landscape. My wife bought a travel agency and became totally immersed in it for the next 11 years. I started a mediation-arbitration business in Salt Lake City (since I was also a trained mediator). I was asked to join other non-profits, and chaired the local Parks and Recreation Board in the City. Eventually I was elected to City Council in 1996 for a 4-year term (one was enough for me). It began the 8th 7-cycle period of my life.
Living in this very conservative state exposed me to people and thinking I had not encountered very much. Because of the mormon influence in most of the state, it is one of the most ‘mind controlled’ areas I know, with large numbers of people who follow the subtle dictates of church hierarchy without much thinking or questioning (another subject). I could recognize it easily because of my previous 20-year experience with an essentially ‘religious’ group. The small town I lived in was the exception – a former Irish-catholic mining town with a history of bars, prostitution and rowdy living. It now mined ‘white gold’ in the form of three large ski areas. The local TV and weathercasters in SLC avoid mentioning the town’s name to this day. It’s an island in a sea of conformity.
My relationship with my wife changed greatly in this period. She was working continuously in her new business (very responsible and rule-bound); I was less busy with mine, but more involved in the local community. We grew apart and pursued different interests. This was never possible while we were both focused on the educational work in California and raising two sons.
Sex was never a big deal to me. I never questioned my het orientation and never pursued other relationships. But now a gulf had opened in my marriage relationship, other interests and a ‘restlessness’ took over. I had a few brief affairs and the distance in our marriage widened. I was much more detached, had separate friends and liked pursuing my own interests rather that ‘our’ interests. I took up motorcycling, which I love to this day, and explored the west during summers alone and with others.
My ‘lightsider’ orientation had also changed. I was more exposed and open to conservative ‘darksider’ thinking. There is no ‘liberal’ or ‘alternative’ media in this state. I learned about the ‘patriot’ movement and their thinking. I stopped filing income taxes for a couple of years (which drove my wife up the wall) and filed a defensive lawsuit against the state. It all hit the local media after my election. I learned a tremendous amount about how the ‘system’ actually worked; that it was based on fraud and deceit, the mentality of people who work for government at all levels, the violent nature of the legal process and governance system, and much more. I also did not want to spend the substantial effort required to ‘fight’ the system. I had better things to do with my energies.
In 1999 I had a motorcycle accident that broke both my wrists, but no other injuries or scratches (safety equipment works). It marked a change in my behaviors and interest in politics, social interaction, women, and more. Since moving to Utah I had continued to pursue ‘alternative’ knowledge about a wide variety of subjects, including my interest in the esoteric and paranormal. The internet was now maturing and had wonderful information that would be otherwise impossible to find. Yes, much bullshit, but also availability of a wide variety of subjects and ‘alternative’ news and information sites. One day I found the Leading Edge site; it was full of useful information and an appealing format and orientation.
I ordered and read several LERG publications (Matrix II, III, The Arc and a few quarterlies) before ordering M-5. I wanted to see if the information was credible with other research that I had done – it was. The Matrix V book was a revelation and I read it 2-3 times before really ‘getting it’ fully. My entire orientation has changed completely.
Since the M-5 materials, I have felt I finally ‘found it’ – what I have been looking for all my life but didn’t know what or where to find it. Here was a perspective that finally made total sense, was magnificent in the largest context possible, allowed me to ‘touch’ who I really am, why I am here, why the long journey of experience, and much more. I have voraciously and continuously read other materials to deepen my understanding (Monroe’s trilogy, Paradigm Conspiracy, most of Icke’s books, The Greatest Story Ever Sold, Christ Conspiracy, many of Stichen’s books, Astral Travel, Shamanism and list goes on and on). Although my interest in ET’s and related subjects is still there, I don’t find it very interesting – same old stuff - yea, yea, sure, sure. I am much more drawn to understanding how the ‘control paradigm’ has been integral to human experience for ages, is a built-in part of the simultaneous learning experience and seeing how it has affected this incarnation’s path thus far. As I see deeper into the nature of this reality and my Higher Self’s experiences on this planet I also get weary and anxious to ‘move on’. It’s a bittersweet taste – of loving and appreciating all that the earth experience has provided coupled with understanding the dynamics and limitations of all 3rd density existence.
So that’s the chronology, the outer journey of this incarnation. The major issues / choices / outcomes / experiential loops / etc. that I see as a result of the above journey follows.Patterns
Obviously I learned to be cautious in relationships as a result of my parents divorce and alcoholism. I decided early on that I would not follow that path. I was also exposed to the negative female in my mother (angry, bitter, poor-me, etc) and looked for the opposite qualities in any girls I dated (the mother I never had). My interest in god and religion at an early age was the unconscious search for the father (authority) figure I missed. The dysfunctional family life also gave me strength of will – I could survive in spite of circumstances around me.
My involvement with the ‘community’ for the next three 7-cycles was a recapitulation of sequential experience and lightsider thought mixed with darkside control mechanisms – as though I had to re-experience why I chose the simultaneous path. Many good experiences mixed with group mindsets, group dynamics, group dependencies – all of it was repeated intimately and intensely so I would ‘get’ why I am really here – to become an autonomous, self-sufficient individual.
In my work experience I also repeated the same pattern, moving from very large organizations, to medium size, to smaller, to my own businesses, to finally being self employed with no employees or hangers-on. I experienced all the roles in business from large to small enterprises and found none all that interesting or meaningful, though I gained many, many skills.
The one pattern that persists throughout this incarnation is my love of the creative process. I love a blank sheet of paper; of new beginnings; of creating something out of nothing – whether words to convey a story (like these) or designing a house, or painting a mural, or researching a new subject of interest. There is a feeling that accompanies this process that transports my attention to the singularity before me. I can get ‘lost’ in this for hours, thinking only a few minutes have passed.Experiential loops:
Religion - I was immersed in the religious loop for quite a while and have moved beyond it completely. I view religions as one of the key control mechanisms on this or any simultaneous planet. Without memories of other incarnations, the simultaneous incarnation is susceptible to belief systems that foster fear and dependency – which is why religions are introduced by sequentials. Government and money are the other two ‘keys’ to controlling populations, but that’s another subject. I spent much time studying the ‘teachings’ of mythical jesus, the bible, and other religious traditions. While these traditions emerged from somewhere, and contain many truths, I have too much knowledge of how sequentials can manipulate others, produce ‘magic’ to impress the locals, and create beliefs in low to mid level incarnations to take any of it seriously. In fact, I don’t believe most things in this culture or world. If it’s on TV, in the media, widely published, accepted by most – it’s mostly bullshit. You have to look hard to find kernels of truth in this wasteland of endgame.
Addictions – My early childhood and decisions made back then have ‘immunized’ me from any interest in the usual physical addictions. The only experience that came close was a focus on sex for a few years when I had the affairs. I could see how it could be become addictive - survival drives can take over one’s consciousness. As it turned out, that experience allowed me to distance myself in the marriage relationship (along with the M-5 materials) to where we basically live independent lives and interests, separate bedrooms, and no physical intimacy for over 12 years. It works, for now. I have great fondness for her and our shared experience (after 46 years!) but it’s more a companionship thing now.
Male / Female Issues – This incarnation’s DNA programming is definitely ‘het’. I’ve never really entertained bi or gay relationships. I have certainly been caught up in the ‘game’ with females but it has never been the focus of attention for very long. I have found few females or males tuned to subjects or interests I have. I see so clearly now the ‘female game’ of subtle, indirect control, of using gender as a tool to get their way, in ‘sucking’ energy from males and guarding against other females their ‘male’ energy source. In males one sees the ‘time release DNA’ gradually eating away at their identity, deferring to females more and more, controlled in their thinking and actions by hormones, group mentality and conformity.
In 2003 (age 63, 9th 7-cycle) I got into a big dynamic with my wife on vacation. She left for home early, at my urging. I was fed up it with all the female crap, indirect control mechanisms, fear-based decisions, etc. I came home and announced I was taking a ‘sabbatical’ from the relationship for while. She cried for days on end. I made arrangements for an apartment, etc. I was building an expensive spec home at the time and suddenly realized the financial drain it could have along with maintaining two residences, etc. But more important, during this period I realized that my HS and hers had a relationship that was being worked out somehow in these incarnations. I recalled the diagrams of relationship in M-5. It was not by accident that we met in college or that she got pregnant when I was about to go to another college, or that the relationship had lasted this long. So a truce was called and the separate living arrangements made within the house. It is still trying at times, but I also continue to learn from it.
The Power Game – I have never been interested in wealth or power to any extent. Yes, more money is always nice, but I know down deep it would be a total distraction to me if I had too much. Control over others is also addictive, as anyone in a large, hierarchical, human organization can attest. I have experienced all of this in many venues, and I’m good at it – but it doesn’t interest me in the slightest now. My brief encounter with local politics was a lesson in how ‘the system’ is so resistant to change, and just another ‘group mindset’ thing. The imposing of laws, regulations, rules, etc by ‘government’ [read ‘elite’ at all levels] is the essence of violence. Since violence begets more violence, it becomes a never-ending cycle of control and manipulation (and full employment for bureaucrats, lawyers and enforcement goons). But that’s why we’re here, right?
Allowance – I have two adult sons, and three grandchildren. I’d say both sons are both mid-level incarnations with little or no interest in higher level materials (although I’ve given them books, or sent email articles in the past – I don’t do it now). One is divorced and lives in SoCal and the other lives nearby with his wife and two children. I have had to completely release any and all expectations I have for all of them. I have, in fact, done some deep meditation on releasing them and saying my goodbyes, knowing they each have their own paths. A very tearful, emotional experience – but necessary. I have done this process with all my relationships and feel pretty much detached and free to leave. The hardest thing over the past 3-4 years is holding back my tendency to ‘save’ or ‘help’ others, or ‘show them the way’ or share something they cannot possibly ‘hear’. Lightsider bullshit. I want to help, but recognize now that each has their own path and it’s not up to me to interfere with that.
Interventions - There have been times, in looking back, where I can see the ‘insertion’ of events or circumstances that have changed or influenced my path. One was getting married very young; my life would have taken an entirely different path had that not occurred. Next, my Chinese friend appeared just when I was questioning where I was going. He introduced me to esoteric subjects that ‘clicked’ with me, and opened an entirely new perspective on life here and beyond. He ‘just happened’ to call again in 1968 when I was again questioning my path. The result was a multi-year involvement with the group process described above. Then, when that experience was over and I was not sure where my path would lead, all of a sudden we move to a new and very different environment without prior thought. New perspectives; new beginnings. Then the MC accident abruptly stopped my behaviors and re-focused my energies on searching for ‘something’. And, of course, the M-5 materials appeared in my life shortly thereafter – and everything changed again. I can see now the help of my Higher Self at each of these junctures – inserting somebody or something that would influence my path and choices. Were they the ‘right’ decisions? Who knows – but they lead to what I was supposed to find and embrace – the M-5 project.
OBE’s, Dreams, etc. – I have read much on OBE experiences and have two CD series from the Monroe Institute. I have used these with limited success. It seems this incarnation may not be destined to have these direct OBE experiences as there is always ‘something’ that interferes with my persistent use of them. On the other hand I have had many vivid dream experiences and meditative journeys. I write down my dreams in a journal since 2002. This process waxes and wanes depending on my ‘waking’ life, yet patterns emerge that are very helpful.
Example - After waking about 4:00am, reading for an hour and going back to bed. Next set of dreams involved going to the ‘other side’ (4th density) and seeing it didn’t vary too much in appearance from 3rd. I went down some circular stairs, knowing I was going deeper. I arrived at a landing and door. I went into a room with strange creatures along the far wall. One was mounting another and turned toward me. It came at me menacingly, but I took the initiative and confronted it, staring it down with will power until it backed off. As I turned to leave two other creatures came at me and again, I confronted them head-on, wrapping them in gold light. I then went to another room which appeared to be a hospital. I saw only females as I walked through. As I passed operating rooms, it appeared females were trying on various bodies and sometimes the skin was too loose. At the end room various body parts were laying around and someone asked if they made me sick. I said no and observed how the bodies were being shaped to fit various entities. I awoke knowing I had crossed a threshold.
Dreams of buildings being demolished and re-built, of the moon disintegrating overhead one night; journeys to far off lands and peoples, nuclear explosions and more. They signal massive internal changes. In listening to Swan Lake (after the Author’s recommendation and description) I had a very vivid meditative journey through time and space, was drawn into my HS looking around and finally doing some very fast motions around the nexus of time with 3-4 others standing around in a circle with me. The ‘Goodbye Milky Way’ song had a similar effect in that great torrents of emotion and release welled up and I was transported up and out to the outer reaches of the galaxy watching the gold graduation key spin slowly with the music. It took several times listening before the emotion finally subsided. “I will miss you children of the sun” is a very poignant and appropriate phrase. The ‘Sitting on the Moon’ piece also impacted me – as though an old friend was searching the planet for another but could not recognize his ‘signature’ any longer (like Monroe’s friend).
I treasure the dreams and inner journeys when they occur, as I know the source from whence they come. I have had lots of experience interpreting dreams and find them very helpful in ‘registering’ where I am emotionally and spiritually.Conclusion
There is so much to learn, so much to see, to experience that one lifetime cannot do – obviously. I have had flashes of other lives my HS is having (both male and female) but they are passing images to let me know I am more than this incarnation. I used to try figuring the incarnational level I am, but it’s a useless exercise. It makes no difference whatever, since I am my HS and made the decision to incarnate into the context and time stream best suited for experiences needed by me, no one else. It’s taken a long, long time to ‘wake up’. I’m not my Final, but have met him in a dream once, I think.
The perspective I have now is so completely different from everyone around me that it brings a sense of aloneness, but not sadness. I go through the motions of daily life with others around me, yet there is a gulf so wide and so deep that it’s stunning to contemplate. I cannot speak of what I know because of that gulf, or have in-depth conversations. I love asking pointed questions, making comments about events of the day, to see people’s reaction. Is anybody home? I naturally want to share things that excite and interest me - yet who can hear? Who can see? Who can sense the magnificent, beautiful design, dimension and dynamics of it all?